Julie wrote:Hence the reason I'm reluctant to say to God "Bless me big time", because then I make the prayer about MY will instead of HIS will..which is what I seek today.
Thanks Julie! I understand!
For me... when I first looked at "God, Bless me big time!"...
it put a smile on my face and a nice feeling in my heart, by helping me to remember to perceive God as a kind, loving, sharing, caring, close-to-me, God, that really wants to be active in my life, and to share good-ness with me.
When I pray : "God, Bless me big time!" it makes me feel good, not-too-serious about stuff, and hopeful. It makes me want to share all that I have and have been given -- with others. With the realization, that what I have and have been given has been given for the reason of sharing it with others.
It also reminds me that God is an abundant God. Has no limits other than the limits that I place on Him, through my willingness, permission and participation.
And, it reminds me that God is Good and desires to share the Good Life with me.
So, that little prayer means much more than just "give me, give me, give me!"
I used to think that God didn't like me.... and, that often God actually hated me... and spent a lot of time keeping tabs on me to punish me and cause me pain and suffering, and giving me problems and then call that "love" -- because God is God and can do anything God wants to do!
That's what it used to mean to me, when I heard "God loves you!"
And... it's what it came to mean to me... when someone else said to me, "I love you." It meant they wanted to beat the heck out of me, break my heart, lie, cheat, steal and cause me pain, punishment and suffering.
And... if I heard something like "God loves you and I love you, too!" It meant I was dealing with a double-dose of hell, fire and damnation!
Because of God's grace, mercy, love, and AA, the 12 Steps, and many many other people like the people here in the forum -- and you, too -- I've learned that God is Love. God is a Loving God. And, that Love is Good and Love is God. And, that "bless me" didn't mean... bite me, chew me, spit me out when you're through with me!
I used to get way too serious about Life and everything in life including myself. I didn't know how to relaxe and take it easy. I had forgotten how to laugh and joke and to feel and to cry.
Life is Good for me, and it's the best life I ever had -- because God does "Bless me big time!" And, that prayer works for me... when, and even when I don't work it!
God and life are always being good to me. When I'm perceiving what I have as a problem... and a misery... I'm having something to do with creating it -- and I've been given the tools and the Power to change it!
Whenever it seems to me that God isn't blessing me big time... I can take a look to discover why and what I can do about it!
I know that God's will for me -- is to be happy, joyous, free, sober, helping others, and doing the best that I can do -- to be and do the best that I can for any situation or circumstance. And, that's all that I know about my God's will for me.
Thanks for the reminder!