tim-one wrote:I want out of my comfort level. Booze was my comfort. I don't want to be comfortable any more. I want to be useful to the world around me.
Heya Tim ---
Reality check here bro'!
Do you know what you're saying? Man oh man, if you're saying that to your God, and that thought is sincere in your heart and mind, God bless you, man! I stopped saying things and thinking things like that a long time ago! God has an uncanny way of teaching me a little bit more about mixing self-control into my enthusiasm.
Why? God answers thoughts. God answers questions. God knows the desires of my heart, and by God, He certainly has the Power to do anything good I ask of him. So here is where "Think. Think. Think" comes in mighty handy. Sometimes it feels like God, with His unfailingly dry and sincere Wit and Humor, will answer me with such an inspiration:
"Why Paul, I'm glad you asked for that. I'll gladly take you out of your comfort zone and make you more useful to the world around you. In fact, I'll do it right now
before you change your mind! I thought you'd never ask!"
Then KABOOM - in an instant I will be so far out of my comfort zone that I'll forget what a comfort zone was, then crying (real tears) wishing I was back in the zone again. In the twinkling of an eye, I'm smack dab in the middle of some kind of totally unexepected, whirlwinding, life-changing set of circumstances. I might find myself milking cows in Wisconsin for God knows why, and who, and how and what! But by golly, I'll literally be ankle deep in cow-poop squeezing nipples at 4AM 80 miles west of Madison - I tell you what! And I ALWAYS end up remembering my thoughts and prayers, and then saying to myself "why in THEE HELL did I ask HIM for that!"
You think I'm joking?
Now Now...(or as Geoff might say "Here, here!")
There is so much to be gained by trusting my Higher Power. My life is so much more enriched and better - better than it ever was. But brother, when He takes me out of the comfort zone, He'll take me WAY WAY WAY far out of that comfort zone when I "volunteer" to let Him do it. Then I find out through wrenching moments, that I MUST
learn how to master my emotions and feelings (the Dallas B "I over E" theorum), or else I'm cooked meat.
I hate to say this. But I do that every day, my friend, when I pray the 3rd step prayer. I turn over all that I have and all that I am to Him. Buddy let me tell you what - I'm never again able to predict or forsee where He takes me. Sometimes nothing changes one day to the next: that gives me a moment of serenity. Did I say SERENITY? Did I say MOMENT? These are the things that deepen my love affair with TODAY. Buddy I hang on to today like there's no tomorrow.
For me, to think what you've written up there, or to pray for some kind of change that makes me more useful, I've learned to grab on to today and the moment with everything that is within me. Today is the very best day there ever was.
"Elders" in the fellowship always told me "it gets better" or "if you think it's great today, wait until you see tomorrow."
Well, I think I learned how to wait for tomorrow.
I wish you glorious adventures on this journey, Tim-one. I'm confident you're definitely heading for the "new adventures in usefulness" you long for.
Be prepared for the unexpected, my friend (sorry if that sounds like "advice"). Remember though, that we walk together, and we're here "in the spirit" and you'll probably "surely meet some of us as you trudge" into your Happy Destiny.
and His Love to you my friend~